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Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Art Accessibility

I've been escaping through art lately and letting my mind run free in pictures. I found this site  and thought you may like a "mental vacation". It's inspiring how people use their health conditions to express the un-expressible.

Here's a description about the art:
Artsy’s mission is to make all the world’s art accessible to anyone with an Internet connection. Artsy are a resource for art collecting and education.

Artsy's Artsy’s mission is to make all the world’s art accessible to anyone with an Internet connection. Artsy are a resource for art collecting and education.

Artsy's Frida Kahlo page, like all of the artist pages, provides visitors with Kahlo's bio, works, exclusive articles, and up-to-date Kahlo exhibition listings. The page also includes related artists and categories, allowing viewers to discover art beyond our Kahlo page.

Frida Kahlo’s life has become as iconic as her work, in no small part because she was her own most popular subject: roughly one third of her entire oeuvre is self-portraits. Her works were intensely personal and political, often reflecting her turbulent personal life, her illness, and her relationship with the revolutionary muralist Diego Rivera. Kahlo dedicated her life and her art to the Mexican Revolution and the simultaneous artistic renaissance it engendered. Her style of painting has been widely categorized; Rivera considered her a realist, while André Breton considered her a Surrealist, and Kahlo eschewed labels entirely. “I paint my own reality,” she wrote. “The only thing I know is that I paint because I need to, and I paint whatever passes through my head without any other consideration.” She identified most strongly with Mexican popular and folk art, also evidenced in her habit of dressing elaborately in Tehuana costumes.

It you would like to explore more of these exquisite pieces, here are some links directly to the Frida Kahlo, Diego Rivera, and André Breton pages on their names.

https://www.artsy.net/artist/frida-kahlo

https://www.artsy.net/artist/diego-rivera

https://www.artsy.net/artist/andre-breton

Enjoy!

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Respect

Poem - Depression Won't Win

Actively fighting this dark pit,
I WILL defeat it by refusing to quit.
Don't count me out - don't you dare!
I'll be stronger than ever, so watch & prepare!
I'm not done, just changing gears...
I'll rise like a star in upcoming years.

Saturday, August 12, 2017

It Hurts

Life... it hurts.

It hurts every turn I make. I'm scared to look anywhere for fear I will hurt some more. I don't know what to do.

There is a wonderful blessing that lifted my spirits a bit. My health has greatly declined, and I recently got some potentially devastating news. I worry when I die, there will be no one to take care of my Addy and Jireh. My prayers were answered when a friend texted me this morning to let me know she would keep them both together. What a relief! Knowing what a big responsibility that is, I definitely felt appreciative, loved, and understood.

I'm holding on to that to refuse to give up.

Friday, August 11, 2017

Update

Been doing a lot of processing, coming up with new story plots and writing poetry. Definitely in a deep clinical depression, yet there is no one I would want to leave Addy and Jireh to. And so I sleep a lot, read the Bible, and contemplate my place in this world. Sadly, I don't think I have a place in this world,  at least not society.

There's a society in my mind where things are fair, God is revered and people are loving.  Whose to say this 48 year old can't go back to her world of pretend?

To be honest, the world in my head is closer to reality than the world I have been living in! I've seen a few people's true colors this past summer, and they are not who I thought they were. I've been living in the bubble of denial.

Having mental illness is bad enough, but expecting people to understand illnesses that differ from one person to the next is beyond practical. I have work to do... work educating people on mental illnesses. Work explaining depression doesn't impact one's level of faith if they claim to be a Christian.

And a couple other books and articles. I need to be with other writers and people with mental illnesses. Online! Thank goodness, I can do all this online... but I am here, behind my keyboard, making residence in my head.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

God Turns Burdens Into Blessings

A dear friend just told me she is able to be a friend with depression after watching me go through severe depression.

That means so much to me! That shows me my burden is of benefit to others. It makes my depression worth it.

And this friend confronted me on a very uncomfortable topic..  I know that was hard for her. By talking with her, God was talking to me.

Monday, August 7, 2017

People Come and Go

Article on Sinead O'Connor here.

I feel for her. I truly do. People don't handle mental illness the way you think they should because they can't read your mind (trust me... you don't want to read my mind!). I tell myself what a burden I am and my relatives are right... I think I lost another close friend. So I decided 2 hours ago to know people are just passing through at this moment and keep everything on the surface. Then, I reached out to 3 local friends, and am making plans for the beach, a literature reading, and writing at Starbucks. They are in my life right now. And if I just have Addy and Jireh for Christmas,  that's okay.