Medical Condition #5 – Major
Clinical Depression actually ties with
anxiety for the most debilitating diagnosis that I have been given. I am
cautious in what I write since I am in a major depression right now. When my
medications are right, I can be successful, having the high quality of life I
have worked so hard for, which is why I constantly keep op with the latest in
counseling and psychology, determined to keep my licensure.
Cautious because when I am in this
deep of a depression, my emotions are fragile, irritability is through the
roof, and intolerance overshadows grace. Therefore, in every aspect, I don’t
like who I am! I know people who have
never been clinically depressed cannot understand, yet I have no patience when
I crash like this. Everyone seems to have family and/or friends to CARE, to
check on them, to just sit at their bedside and hold their hand… I am sure my
perceptions are largely inaccurate, which is why reading about survivors of
concentration camps have been somewhat inspiring this week. Most of the
homeless people have some type of mental illness, and are also alone. So I am
not the only pour soul out there without a family with whom to fight depression
and anxiety.
One thing that is hard to remember
is depression is not always affected by external factors. People question why
an individual remains depressed after obtaining a promotion or getting married.
Remember, depression is primarily neurochemical, especially in long-term
cases.
My life is so much better than it
was a year ago – yet my depression is, well, it is best to keep quiet.
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