NOT FOR THE WEAK AT HEART!- God truly is using Jen to keep me alive. The back up person freaked out when I told him I was suicidal and had a plan. Jen is AMAZING with keeping me going. And no worries, my psychiatrist is monitoring me too. All this is showing me the need to GET PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT DEPRESSION AND SUICIDE!  MANY lives would be saved. I am not ashamed at my condition and have even spoke to Pastor Joel Hunter about God and suicide. Keeping silent will kill you.